Lock me up

It's only been one day and I've already broken several rules.  I have no resolve.  First, I checked facebook about 4 or 8 times today.  I have not left the house, although I did look out the window.  I have been playing word twist for the last three hours.  It's like Boggle.  After each game you see a nice bell curve and you get your rating -- very low, low, average, high, very high.  For the first hour I rated VERY LOW on every turn.  This was a little upsetting.  So then I spent the next hour trying to break into the low range.  I'm getting there about every third game.  Now I am just playing trying to come out average.  This is killing me.  I can't rate very low on a word game -- a word game, seriously?

Hiatus over

So I took a little break.  When I started this blog last July I knew that it would be hard to keep it going once I got swamped with school.  I'm surprised I lasted as long as I did.  I guess I got mucked down right about March/April and I haven't really emerged until this week.  So much has happened, funny, sad, embarrassing.  I don't know that I'll update everything but since this is my journal I might go back and add a few events.  I just needed to take that first step and get it over with.  

One of my friends has a theory about why weight loss is so hard for women.  I think it applies to my blogging.  It's because we tend to be perfectionists.  All or nothing.  We beat ourselves up if we make a mistake.  We say mean things to ourselves and sometimes punish ourselves by repeating the undesired behavior. If we can't be perfect at what we are doing we don't do it.  Men on the other hand are okay not being quite so perfect.  They make a mistake they shrug their shoulders and get over it, then start again the next day.  I think she's really onto something.  I was looking at my blog just like I look at weight.  All or nothing.  Even though I enjoy it if I didn't have time to devote myself entirely I didn't do it and even if I did have time, I didn't have any time to catch up with everything I wanted to blog about so again, I didn't do it.  Those days are over.  School is out, math classes are done.  I don't start a new class until August so I have some free time.  This demands that I also need to set some parameters so that I don't become overly obsessed -- The other side of the all or nothing spectrum.  If I'm in I'm really in so, since I have a little more free time this month I have decided I can only check my blog/email/facebook page twice a day. Once in the morning and once in the evening.  I will not become addicted to any games -- flibricks, gems, dots, solitaire, word scrapper, or any other that tend to suck all of my time and exacerbate my self-diagnosed carpal tunnel syndro

me. I can only spend an hour a week on iTunes.  I must speak to one human being every day.  I must leave the house at least once every day.  For now these are the rules I must abide by.  I usually make some sort of television viewing rule, but I am so backed up on all my shows that it hasn't been a problem as of yet.  I might need a few days of intense viewing to catch up -- next time it rains. 

Speaking of rain Amie and I saw the most AMAZING double rainbow coming out of the movies this weekend.  It was a full arch and the light was hitting it so 

you could see the full spectrum of color.  I tried to get a picture of the entire arch but my lense wasn't wide enough.  It really was beautiful.